Past Pain

I would like you to image an old soldier walking into town leaning on a stick. There is a child with him and he is happy and jolly with the child. Then they go into the park and the old man stands still as the, pass the war memorial and he looks at the names. in an instant he is back in that fox hole in 1944 in Holland the shells are raining down and the dead men litter the field. The pain is overwhelming and a tear is seen in his eye. In that moment he is broken again and the wound in his leg hurts like it did 70 years earlier.

There are many clergy like that man, they have lived through the battle ground that is church life. They have tried to bring about change or they just were not like their predecessor, they preached in a different way and or they just were ministering somewhere where the gospel was hated. What do we do with them? We move them on and put them into action again, but I can see that 13 years in a painful ministry is a God-given privilege in that as one man put it:

There are some things we would love to forget but scars will be there forever, serving as a constant reminder. As painful as they may these inwardly and outwardly actually do serve a very important purpose.

They remind us of the impacts of sin and the are a powerful reminder that as a church we are to be as it says in Ephesians 4 enabled to walk:

in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call— one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.

They also remind me I walk the way of the cross and as Christ suffered so will I and that i am not immune from the effects of ministry. I have pretended that they have all healed and the past is the past but it never is it affects and is affected by the present. we need as a writer put it to remember:

God doesn’t give us scars to remind us that we have been hurt. God gives us scars to remind us that we have been healed having been faithful, we’ve been delivered; and we’ve been set free! Although Paul endured attacks upon his ministry, he reminded those involved (the Galatians church) his scars showed that belonged to Jesus. Thank God for scars!

My pain is something I need to find a way to cherish and use to the glory of God because in the darkest moments he held me and brought me out of the pit. However handle you minister, pastor, clergy with care they have been in the front line and they will have faced live fire from the Devil and will bear the scars and as much as you wouldn’t press on the wound of that veteran, why would you be careless with your minster, pastor or clergy. A U.S University research project concluded;

Social support from the congregation was a protective factor in terms of the
relationship between burnout and turnover intentions.
Remember what it says in Ephesians 4 that:
“he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to
equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until
we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to
mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, so that we may no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ, from whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped, when each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it builds itself up in love.”

 

He gave us each other as an act of love and remeber they have been in the front line and they will hurt and they will cry and they may need space to hurt and I know that it will take me 2 or even 4 years to recover but i know i have a church that will walk with me in that recovery.

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